talking without hesitation

"Therefore go and make disciples 

of all nations, 

baptizing them in the name 

of the Father 

and of the Son 

and of the Holy Spirit,"

Matthew 28:19

Hey guys! I hope you all have been doing amazing. I have been recovering from strep this past week. It has not been fun, but life happens. I am very thankful that I have access to medicine that works wonders. I am much better now. On another note, I am sure by now majority of you are done with your spring semester. Whether your exams went better or worse than expected, you made it!! Congratulations!

I am so excited to talk about today's topic, but honestly, when do I am not excited about my topic hahaha? It is something I am so crazy about. I was in the middle of writing "life as a nanny" when it hit me that I should write about what I am most passionate about instead. I am not mad at all about this sudden change in topic either. I pray about my blogs a lot. It is so exciting when God makes it clear what I am supposed to discuss. 

When I was in third grade, my school gave each of the students a necklace with their name and a word they felt described that student. My word was empathetic. I would say that had a pretty big impact on the way I felt about helping others... even though, I was very young. 

So, what is it that I am trying to get out? I am extremely passionate about being an encourager, a disciple, a light, or whatever other name you want to call it. When I was around 12 or 13, I would make my friends come to my house for a Bible study every weekend. During the week, I would come up with a topic to talk about. I would look up Bible verses and teach my friends whatever I managed to put together. Who on Earth knows if I actually said anything accurate, but I loved doing it. At one point, I even made each of us make cards and go to the nursing home to give them out. Obviously, I had some amazing and supportive friends growing up. 

My point with the sappy background stories is simply to show how serious I am about this, and how long I have been serious about this. I am not trying to say "look at me!! look at me!! I was such a perfect kid, and I still am." Because I can tell you right now, I know very well that I am no better than you are (even when I was a child). We are all sinners at the end of the day. However, I am not here to talk about my sins or your sins. That is just not what I am here to do haha. 

A lot of times, Christians feel as though they need to hold back when talking to certain people. If you feel scared or hesitant about talking to someone about anything God-related, you need to work on pushing yourself to talk about it. There's no need to wack them in the head with a Bible, or scream they are going to hell. Sometimes, we, as Christians, are hesitant to even say "I felt like God wanted me to go to college to study this particular degree." or "I have been praying a lot for you. I know you are going through a really hard time." Whether you are talking about yourself or trying to support others, hesitation loves to creep into our minds. It has taken me years to get to the point where mentioning God has become as easy as introducing myself. Hesitation should be looked at as a motivator, because talking to people, who make us hesitant, most likely are in need to be reached out to. 

I will pretty much tell any and everyone my testimony. I have always been an open book. If someone will listen, I will happily talk away. Just about everyone in high school knew about me crying in the nurse's office multiple times for the first two weeks of freshmen year. They did not know from seeing me. I always calmed down, and went back to class smiling. They knew, because I would straight up tell them I did that hahaha. When it comes to my anxiety and stories I have from my life, I am not embarrassed to talk about it. When people have questions, I answer them. So many times I hear "if you don't mind me asking...", and I will think, "Oh my gosh, I love you asking." My hope in telling people this kind of stuff is that it will help them in whatever battle they are facing. Sometimes, it takes hearing another person's struggles and how they faced it... To feel a little bit better about your own situation. All the struggles I have faced throughout the years has opened so many doors for me to be able to talk about what God has done in my life. This is why I write blogs. I see it as a way for me to freely talk about God, and say all the things I was scared to say in the past. I would have never thought just how much blogging means to me, and how much I appreciate the people reading them. I really hope as time goes on I will be able to reach more people with my blogs, but at the end of the day, having an impact on one person would be enough. 

I encourage you to speak up more about God. Show the love that God shows us to the ones who need it the most. It won't always be easy, and you may receive backlash. However, there is always a chance that you help guide them to God. It is up to us to be a light in this darkening world. Christians need to stick together. I do not believe that there are as few as there seem to be... I just believe more are scared of the persecution that has been coming our way. 

And of course, you ALL are loved and appreciated! <3 Thank you for taking the time to read my blog. Please continue to pray for my grandmother. Life just has not been super comfortable for her, and it can be draining on her physically and emotionally. My cousin is still recovering from having a brain tumor removed. Please continue praying for a speedy recovery. Lastly, please pray for this blog. I am constantly brainstorming and thinking of new ways to reach more people. So please pray that this blog continues to grow. 

SIDE NOTE : I have an account on Instagram to post about new blogs, encouraging quotes, and bible verses. I would highly appreciate a follow, and I will follow you back. You are also welcome to direct message me if you have any questions, suggestions, comments, or concerns regarding any of my blogs! I love hearing from you all (: 

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