Saturday, April 27, 2019

preparing my heart



"We love because He first loved us." 

1 John 4:19

Hey guys!! I hope you all had a great Easter. I spent much of this Easter really reflecting on what exactly we are celebrating. You hear the story about Jesus dying and rising from the dead over and over. I have been hearing that story since I was very young. I took a step back this Easter, and listened to the story with new ears. It is so crazy that we are all loved that much that Jesus endured that kind of pain for us. If you ever doubt God's love for you, remember He watched His son go through that to save our undeserving selves because of how HUGE His love is. 

If you follow me on Instagram, I promise that I will not post a poll every time I write a blog. However, I did ask for this week's blog whether you would like me to talk about my life as a nanny or preparing my heart while I am single. Preparing my heart won easily, but I will write my life as a nanny eventually as well. 

So, let's get on with today's blog. As many of you know I am single, I talk about it often. It may look like I am complaining or wishing I was still in my previous relationship. Both of which are NOT the case. For the most part, I have a very positive outlook on this season of life as a single girl lol. I do not cry over the past. I have gotten frustrated with God a few times. I would wonder why He would put me through the things He has. So, I am not going to sit here and be like all unicorns and rainbows. However, I am also not going to sit here, and act like it is all storms. I speak out about it a lot, because I hope it can show others that being single is not all that bad.

So, what am I doing now to better myself for my next relationship? I do a lot of self-reflection. I pay more attention to how I handle when I get frustrated. Since I work with little babies, there is a lot of taking deep breaths, and reminding myself that I am dealing with little ones. I work long days. I worked forty hours last week, and there were many frustrating times. This has helped me with other people though. Since I am so used to taking a deep breath and realigning my thoughts to properly handle a situation at work, I now have a better sense on how to handle frustration with grown adults. When I get frustrated with God, I am also able to take a step back, and thank Him for the good He has done for me. This constant flipping of mindset will be very useful when I get in another relationship and when frustrations begin to arise. 

Now, of course realigning my thoughts is just healthier for myself. I want to be happy and at peace with my life without having a boyfriend. I spend a lot of time praying for myself and for my future spouse. To many this may seem like a strange concept, but it's an actual thing. It is good to pray for your special someone even if you aren't quite sure who she/he is. You want them to be just as ready as you will be when the time comes. I spend a lot of time listening to christian music. I read a devotion and my bible daily. My relationship with God needs to have a strong foundation before I can be with someone. So, I am doing everything I can to make my relationship with God amazing. Again, with or without a boyfriend, this is good for me. A relationship with God will always be the most important relationship to have. 

I want to be content and happy with my life now. When I start getting frustrated with my job, I will list out everything that I love about it. It is a great job, and I do not have room to be griping about it. I want to keep building the desire to get out of my comfort zone more and more. I want to keep working on forming the best relationship possible with my family. If you know me, you know I am especially close with my mom and two of my sisters. When I was at my lowest, they were always the ones right there. It is not just about my lows though. I need to enjoy my highs with someone as well, and they make those great moments even greater. 

I am human though. I will feel. I will get frustrated. I will cry. One thing that I will not stop doing is finding the light in the darkness. I will work and work on myself and continue to try to better myself. When the time comes, God will guide me to whoever it is I am supposed to be with. Heartbreaks and disappointments could easily be on my path, but even then, I will find the light in the darkness. With whatever struggle you are dealing with today, I encourage you to find the light in the darkness. Look for something positive about your situation. Flip your mindset. It may not heal your heart right away, but it may help. A little help is better than none. 




As always, you are ALL loved and appreciated <3 Thank you for taking the time to read my blog. I post every other week usually on Saturday! Please keep praying for my grandmother. She could always use the extra prayers. One of my cousins recently had a brain tumor removed. It was benign!! However, please pray he has a speedy recovery. 

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PEACE OUT UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!

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