feeling good again

May He give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. 

Psalms 20:4

I am so excited to share that I finally have a job! I am officially a nanny, and I love it. It honestly is such a great feeling to have a purpose. I like waking up and knowing I have a place to be. There is no more of this feeling of being lost. 

My job is currently part-time, but eventually, my hours will become more like a full-time job. I was only supposed to work fifteen hours this week, but I will have worked a total of twenty instead. The little boy I watch goes to daycare twice a week, and it was cancelled due to the hurricane. I will keep you all posted on my hours as they change!

I am so thankful that God found a family for me to work for. There are challenges I am already facing with my new job... Both personally and on the job. The little boy has a hard time with the fact that his parents are at home. This causes more fits and screaming. Other than that, he is honestly really well-behaved, and fun to be around. 

As for my struggles personally, I am still struggling with loneliness and anxiety. I have suffered with anxiety since the age of five. (I will make a whole blog post about that, because anxiety has been a big part of my life.) Something that triggers my anxiety is change, and as of lately, I feel like my life is in constant changing mode. I feel so panicky at times with no one to really talk to. It makes my head spin to just talk to you guys about it. I am just trying to find a balance. I am constantly reminding myself of all the blessings in my life. I am taking it day by day. 

I encourage you all to take a step back. Look at the big picture, and remind yourself of what you are doing. If you are in college, you are working for your own career one day. If you are like me with a new job, you are able to work for your money. Whatever you are doing, there is a reason for it. I hope you all get to follow your dreams like I am. You all deserve it. 

Lastly, I wanted to share a prayer request. My grandmother's heart has not been doing so well. It is very weak, and she has had many procedures done. Luckily, she has a pacemaker and a defibrillator. It is very helpful but still not enough. 

Thank you all for the support and for reading my blog! I will be back next Friday with a new blog. I promise to make a more lighthearted post next Friday! Love and appreciate you all. 

^^^ For now, enjoy this pic of my little dog, Bo Bear. I was hanging up my clean clothes, and he wanted to hang out lol. Also, that weird mark on my thumbnail is from a dog's leash that bent my entire fingernail backyards. 

Let's talk! I love hearing your own stories and opinions! If you have any questions / comments / concerns that you would rather not comment down below, direct message me or email me!

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PEACE OUT UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!

the waiting game

Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.

Psalm 27:14

For once, I have big news to share! I have been working this week (part-time). I have been pretty much doing "nanny training" for a family. I will have worked a total of eleven hours by Friday, and making thirteen dollars an hour. I call it "nanny training", because the mom has been at home all week while I watch the little boy. Sometimes, it is both the parents at the same time. I know I said in my last post that I could never do that, but here I am doing it and loving it. Don't knock it til you try it lol. The mom is there to show me how things work around the house and to see how I work as a nanny. 

To be completely honest, I was really nervous going into this. It can be intimidating to play and talk with a little baby with the parents right there. However, they are incredibly nice, and the little boy is the sweetest little guy ever. He loves cars, hugs, and being silly. He is currently one, but will be two in November. 

This has definitely been a journey for me. It has taken patience and sleepless nights to get here. I am still in the waiting process though. As mentioned, I am working part-time this week to see if the family is a good fit for me, and if I am a good fit for them. For all I know, I could be told on Friday that they do not feel like I am the right fit for them. This is an extremely scary thought, because I honestly feel like I get along great with the little guy. I could see myself working for them full-time.

The waiting game is either almost over, or I have a long road ahead of searching some more. I am trusting God through it all. If I do not get this job, I believe He is keeping me out of a situation that I do not want to go through. If I get the job, I will praise Him, and know the wait for a job is over. I will be happy either way, because at the end of the day, I cannot see ahead the way God can. I encourage you all to remember that God puts us in situations for a reason. It is not always easy to understand right away, but eventually, it will be clearer. It is important to stay on the path God is pushing you towards. The path may not always be easy, but it is worth it. Keep going and trusting!

I am writing this on Thursday, and it will be posted tomorrow (Friday). I am hoping to find out this week whether I got the full-time job! Stay tuned to find out!

Let's talk! I love hearing your own stories and opinions! If you have any questions / comments / concerns that you would rather not comment down below, direct message me or email me!

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Email : Newkindofliving@gmail.com  

PEACE OUT UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!