living and learning

"When You don't move the mountains
I'm needing You to move
When You don't part the waters
I wish I could walk through
When You don't give the answers
As I cry out to You
I will trust, I will trust, I will trust in You"

Trust in You - Lauren Daigle

Hey guys! I hope you all have been doing well. Honestly, I am typing this blog without a single idea of what I am going to say hahaha. I am not one to brainstorm. So work with me here. 

I am still working. I love my job. The little two year old I watch is absolutely hilarious, and he is such a great kid. We have a lot of fun together. Whenever I tell someone about my job, I always tell them, "If anyone were to ever walk in on me and ______ (not saying his name for privacy purposes), we would probably be sitting there just laughing at each other." I still get paid $13 an hour. My hours have increased from twenty and a half to twenty-five and a half hours a week. So that is a little bit better than where I was before. I work til five everyday now instead of four. It was an adjustment. Something about getting off at five just made the day seem a lot longer. I am one of those people who likes to wake up earlier and finish sooner. I am not complaining though. I have pretty much adjusted now anyways. 

Let's see as far as my mental health, I have a few things I want to touch on. If you have read pretty much any of my blogs, it is very clear I am an open book about my mental health. I have lightly mentioned that I started having terrible anxiety at the age of five, and I have been like that ever since. I am not on any medication, but I have taken an all natural supplement before. I highly recommend trying those out first! I am not against people who have/are on medication. I, personally, just do not want to go down that road if I can avoid it. My last update on my mental health was really good. I had been feeling a lot better. Overall, I was feeling extremely happy. I will say that soon after posting that I did take a dive down. I have been struggling to get back up, and it is more challenging somedays than other. For instance, I was at work yesterday, and I was just having a not so good day. I had put myself in a bad mood the night before, and I was in a major funk. Now, I am a nanny. I cannot have bad days when my job is to entertain a two year old. I know this will be hard to comprehend, but going to high school really helped with those kind of days. I was surrounded by hilarious people, and whenever I laughed, I always felt so much better. It was easy to get my mind off of negativity  when I had to get work done and friends lol. Usually, many people with my problem are triggered by school, but for me, it was what helped. Anyways, I was down in the dumps, and doing my best to be an upbeat nanny. It is days like those where I just want to curl up in bed, and do absolutely nothing. 

So, why am I sharing this extremely depressing part of my life? Well, I think it is a good reminder not just for me but for all of you. Be aware of your mental health. Don't beat yourself up when you are having a hard time with easy things. It is so easy for me to think "Aw dang, I just posted a blog about how happy I was, and look where I am now." These days we see post after post about self-care, and different little things to do to help ourselves. It is easy to scroll past those posts or to not think to hard about them. Please, take care of yourself. Use this as a reminder. I know many of you are taking your finals/midterms, and if buying yourself an overpriced coffee makes you feel a little more alive, do NOT hesitate to do so. This last week was blah. So, I bought myself a dunkin donuts iced latte, and my whole entire mood changed for a little while. 

Also, go on amazon and buy "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. It is a little devotion book with a devotion for each day of the year. It is packed full of SOOO many reminders about what we should be focusing on, and also, it is full of LOTS of encouragement. It is so important for us to understand why we go through hard times, and to not get discouraged and/or frustrated with God. If you have not heard the song "Trust in You" by Lauren Daigle, go check that out ASAP. 

I took this a couple weeks back in a Hobby Lobby parking lot. The leaves were so pretty, and it was raining. My mom was like telling me I had to stop and take a picture. I would say it was worth it hahaha. I took this with an android. It may not be the best quality, but hey, it is not the worst!!

As always, please keep my grandmother in your prayers. She still is not doing well at all. Our hope wavers at times, but we are trusting God. He knows what's best. 

Let's talk! I love hearing your own stories and opinions! If you have any questions / comments / concerns that you would rather not comment down below, direct message me or email me!

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PEACE OUT UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!