a little too happy

"Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart."

Psalms 37:4

I am back! Okay, it is not like I planned to abandon all of you. I had planned on coming back and updating you all. I just did not know when to start back up again. You know how it is... Once you stop something, it is hard to get going again. Shout out to a friend of mine from high school who gave me that extra push I needed lol. I am happy to be back. I have a lot of good stuff to share! (:

I am extremely happy these days. I left off with talking about how I had struggled with some harsh negativity. I was anxious and very lonely. I definitely do not feel like I did then. I have settled into my job, and I absolutely love it. The people I work for are incredibly kind. The little boy I watch is the cutest and funniest little guy. My job has been going very well. Also, my hours are not all that great. I only work about 20 hours a week, and I would prefer to work 30-40 hrs a week. However, I have been able to pick up other babysitting opportunities during the week. I have started up writing again. I am currently writing a book of short stories with very twisted endings hahaha. I love writing, and that is a big reason why I even started this blog. With all the babysitting and writing, I just feel like I am using my time in a more productive way. 

My relationship with my boyfriend has improved as well. Hahaha at least I feel that way. He could be reading this and thinking I am still a little out of my mind. We both work really hard during the week. So when the weekend gets here, we are both free to be with each other. We have seen each other every weekend despite him living two hours away. He is definitely my best friend, and I love spending my weekends with him. 

All in all, I have just been a lot happier. I started taking an all natural supplement for my anxiety after 13 yrs of never taking anything for it. I really do feel a difference though. I was having a panic attack AT LEAST once a week for awhile. I have not had a panic attack for almost two weeks now. I feel like I am in more control of my emotions, and a bit more rational when I get angry (Sometimes!! Hahaha, I am still working on that). I pray a lot as usual, and give God the most credit for helping me to feel so much better. 

Sometimes, I still think about high school, and the social life I once had. The only human interaction during the week is with little ones. I try to snap back out of it, because I am so happy. I am so happy I am not in college, and I am able to do what I absolutely love. But I refuse to lie, and say I do not think about that kind of stuff. It is all a part of this journey. 

Lastly, I want to thank all of you for the support. I see how many of you are reading my blogs, and you all are appreciated. It is such a great feeling to see so many of you reading about my life. I will try to post a blog more often, but if I did weekly, you guys would definitely get bored hahaha. 

I took this photo of my sister holding the most heavenly apple donuts. My sister, my boyfriend, and I all went to an apple orchard. It was super cold, and we were not dressed for that weather hahaha. It was extremely pretty that day though. The sky was blue, and the leaves were super pretty. 10/10 would recommend. 

P.S. Please keep my grandmother in your prayers. She is not doing well at all, and we need a major miracle. I am very close with my grandmother, and I would really appreciate the prayers. I know she would as well. Love you all!! <3

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PEACE OUT UNTIL NEXT TIME!!!