discouragement with unemployment

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord's people who are in need. Practice hospitality. 

Romans 12:12-13

I know this is a crazy thought, but I did not think it would be this difficult after dropping out of college. I did not think I would be sitting around applying to as many jobs as I can and doing absolutely nothing for a whole month. Many would think this is like a vacation. I get to sleep in, and do whatever I want during the day. I have no job and no schoolwork. I am not worried about my next assignment or exam. 

This is no vacation. I do not like sitting around. I liked knowing that when I wake up in the morning I have some kind of purpose and a place to be just like everyone else. However, I do not. My only purpose is looking for a job that would be a great fit for me. I have applied to many. I have talked with two people. The first person told me I would know by the end of the week whether or not I got the job. It has been almost two weeks since she said that, and I was left on read. The second lady I talked with asked me many questions,and told me she/her spouse would be home most of the time. I usually babysit when the parent are not around. It is hard to picture forming a bond with a child clinging on to their parent while the parent is working. 

It is hard to not get frustrated with God. It is hard to stay patient. It is hard to not think about all the "what ifs." "What if I am still unemployed for another month?" "What if I am still unemployed by 2019?" These kind of thoughts haunt me. I lay awake late at night freaking out. I wonder if there was something I did horribly wrong during the first interview. I constantly am repeating the conversations I had with the people I have talked to about getting a job. 

Enough complaining, this is just real life. This is not easy. This is stressful. People forget to check on me, because being out of school sounds like a dream. It gets lonely, and at times, I relate with no one. I am here to say that I am not giving up. I refuse to believe that I made the wrong choice when I left college. God has a purpose for me, and whether I like it or not, it requires me to wait. There is a reason it is taking time. There is a reason I am put in certain situations. No matter how alone I feel on Earth... I am never alone. 

I encourage you to reach out to a friend this week. Check on them. We are all going through something even if it does not appear that way. Even if their life appears to be fantastic, it never hurts to check on them. Pray for each other. Everyone deserves to be prayed for... even your enemies. 

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